"But I chose Bebop, I chose you and Spike and Jet, and Ein chose me. Ed didn't choose Dean, or the Angel-man, you chose and Ed went with. Ed doesn't know if she wants to choose." There was panic in the edges of her voice, real fear, things and feelings she didn't understand. She knew that she could choose them, she knew she'd been invited, that Faye and Dean and everyone wanted her there but... everyone seemed to assume she wanted to. That they asked like it was already decided and Edward didn't get a say.
Edward said what was in Edward's life and this was different than the Bebop. This was babies and kids and pets and picket fences like in the old movies Jet liked.
She was afraid to choose now, because if she chose wrong and things... Ed had family leave before. Left her at the kid place and came back too late. "Ed knows Faye is happy. Edward wants Faye to be happy. But Edward isn't happy." And she didn't know what she wanted enough to vocalize it. "Edward doesn't know what I want to be happy."
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Date: 2012-07-23 05:14 am (UTC)Edward said what was in Edward's life and this was different than the Bebop. This was babies and kids and pets and picket fences like in the old movies Jet liked.
She was afraid to choose now, because if she chose wrong and things... Ed had family leave before. Left her at the kid place and came back too late. "Ed knows Faye is happy. Edward wants Faye to be happy. But Edward isn't happy." And she didn't know what she wanted enough to vocalize it. "Edward doesn't know what I want to be happy."