"No, I know. There's a reason why I told him, after all," murmurs Faye, distinctly remembering how her thoughts had immediately leaped to Dean after she'd first found out about her pregnancy. Maybe other women would have thought of the baby, but since the very beginning, the person who matters most to Faye in the situation has been Dean. Continues to be Dean. "But I don't want him to be the one to take the brunt of my own fears, you know? He has enough on his mind. And he's... he lost his brother recently, so I'm sure going on about my own fears won't help. They're the same as his. It's..."
She sighs, thinking about what it'd be like to start reading more about the changes in her body, and coming to that gut conclusion that it won't alter a thing. "I don't think I'll make a great mother, sure. But more than that, I just think about what happens when either of us leaves. If it was just me, I'd roll right on ahead. It'd work out. If it was just Dean, he'd probably pick himself up. But throw a kid into the mix, suddenly there are countless ways this can screw up."
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Date: 2012-05-10 12:42 am (UTC)She sighs, thinking about what it'd be like to start reading more about the changes in her body, and coming to that gut conclusion that it won't alter a thing. "I don't think I'll make a great mother, sure. But more than that, I just think about what happens when either of us leaves. If it was just me, I'd roll right on ahead. It'd work out. If it was just Dean, he'd probably pick himself up. But throw a kid into the mix, suddenly there are countless ways this can screw up."